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Name: Stephanie
Location: Michigan, United States
Birthday: 1/8/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: God, He is truly awesome and has shown me so much. art, music, making poopies, being crafty, helping people, listening, sunsets, stargazing, etc.
Expertise: artsy stuff, God, general random facts, being stupid, music
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
AIM:  mutantsunshine85
Member Since:
9/28/2003
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| this new xanga setup is icky.
anyway, i'm sure someone has said it before me but here goes:
an idea is only as great as your motivation to bring it into fruition.
too many projects, stunted creativity. bah. | | |
| i've been re-readong don miller's "blue like jazz" today and there are so many things he says that strike me at my very core, like a kick in the ribs. one chapter especially jumped out at me. he talks about how living alone caused him to become annoyed with other people for no good reason, caused him to become self-centered in his ways. he also says that community is like food and water for our souls. we need other people to have healthy souls. i believe with my whole heart that this is true. i am such a scrooge now. i don't even know how to interact well with other people. i get annoyed at small talk. i avoid my own family. i didn't think i could achieve this level of atrophy and didn't even recognize the way i felt as being because i forgot how to let other people in. i am truly sorry if i've hurt any of my friends this year with my apathy. i do love you all.
i've been spending a little bit of time recently with a new friend and his family. his house is always loud and bustling, it seems like there's not much privacy for anyone. i like being there amidst all the activity. they are not strangers passing by each other in the kitchen or sitting silently and awkwardly at the table. the parents don't act like their children are a burden. they know each other. they are a family, the kind i've always wanted to be a part of. i've known other families like theirs, i've been close to my best childhood friend's family...and i've always wanted a family like that to "adopt me" i guess, as weird as that is. i am like eli cash from the royal tenenbaums, but without the drug problems. i've always wished i was a tenenbaum. | | |
| i haven't updated in a while. nobody that i'm close to really posts anymore, it's like xanga has gone the way of the fannypack.
i deferred my loans for a year. whew. lots of stress taken off my mind.
i also got a better car, a 2002 focus. i'll be paying the bank back for awhile, but at least i won't have to worry about scary winter driving and my car dying and being left without a way to get to work. peace of mind is priceless. | | |
| the cost of education is ridiculous.
i am not in school right now, trying to work and save for a better car because mine probably won't make it much longer. AND because going to school just to take credits would mean more loans.
i was told my loans would be deferred until at least fall '09 (when i begin my final year of school) unless i completed an exit form with baker.
what do i get in the mail today? payment plans from my loan companies. yea, that's right. cuz someone making $7.75 can really afford $300 monthly payments. fuck. >_<
i'm trying to stay calm and not have a stroke. hopefully i can get them all deferred. i called one company tonight and they can't even talk to me about deferment until dec 9th. ::sigh::
sometimes i wish i hadn't gone to college. or that some benevolent rich and distant relative would decide to pay for all of it. it's all a bunch of bullshit if you ask me. what i really should've done after high school was join a commune and farm and be a dirty hippy. at least then i'd be a little bit happier. | | |
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i'm finally done with my dresser! ain't she a beauty?
ruby red depression era knobs and everything.
for 10 or more hours of work it was worth it. | | |
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